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Tuesday, 27 June 2017

Life Update!

Hi :)

It has been a while since I have posted anything on the blog. This year seems to be flying by before my eyes and the last few months have been so busy. I thought I would write a little update on what has been happening the last few months.

My health

First of all I have been having some issues with my health in the last few months, In April I got rushed to hospital because I had a really high heart rate, I stayed in hospital and they monitored me until my heart rate lowered and then I got sent home. But since then my heart rate has continued to be really high, I have had several appointments and I am now in the process of wearing a heart monitor to track my heart rate and try and find out what exactly is causing it.


Because of the above health issue I have been experiencing, I have had to make a few changes to my lifestyle. I haven't been able to attend my usual exercise classes or do anything too strenuous. I am finding this quite hard as I really enjoyed my classes and loved the socializing aspect of it. To try and maintain some kind of exercise I have been going for more walks (slowly of course) and spending more time outdoors. I have also had to cut out caffeine completely as this obviously increases the heart rate. I haven't found this too difficult as there are lots of caffeine free options for tea, coffee and coke (my bad habit).

Exciting changes

Another reason the last few months have been very busy is because we are looking to buy our first house! Eeek so exciting! Everything is in place so we are now just viewing houses every week and looking for our first home. I am going to write a post about this at some point. But at the moment that is taking up a lot of our time.
We also want to book our wedding this year, so I have been researching in to venues, and trying to decide on a date, again I want to write more post about wedding planning - so look out for those!

So as you can see it has been a busy few months, but lots of things to look forward too. I want to try and post on here more often as it's something I really enjoy doing. So look out for some new posts soon.

Thanks for reading and see you soon x

Friday, 17 March 2017

Feeling proud!

Today I thought I would write a post about feeling proud of yourself, even if the thing you have achieved seem like nothing to other people, but a big thing to yourself, you should take the time to praise yourself, pat yourself on the back and feel good about it.

For me this week, I did something a few years ago I would have found really hard/near impossible ... I stayed on my own for a whole week! Now I know some people reading this will think that it's no big deal, and that people live on their own all the time, but to me it is a massive step!

A big part of my anxiety means I hate, and I mean hate being alone, whenever J as been away for even a night in the past I have absolutely hated it, I have had panic attacks, been hysterical and just generally not felt well because of it. Why? I don't really know, part of me just feels completely anxious when I am alone, I think the worst things are going to happen, I feel scared, I feel alone and my own thoughts kind of consume me.

J started a new job this week which meant his first week he had to travel to Scotland for the week to do training. When he first told me this I felt sick, I started to panic and tried to think of arrangements for me to stay with someone. But then I calmed down and thought about how far I have come in the last few years, how much stronger I am now and I thought you know what? I can do this! And I did!! Today j is back and I have been by myself the whole week, and you know what? It's been absolutely fine! I mean there have been nights I have lay in bed upset cause I miss him and times when I felt a bit anxious because I thought I heard sounds at night but overall it's been fine and I feel so bloody proud of myself!

So today I am celebrating, I am praising myself and feeling good because I did it, and I am strong and can do anything if I put my mind to it!

Happy Friday!! :)

Monday, 6 February 2017

The pill and I

Contraception if often a subject most women wish to talk about but either don't feel comfortable talking about it or don't want to be judged. It's silly really because it is something so natural, most women are using contraception and its actually a good thing to be using it, so there is definitely nothing to be embarrassed about.

I turned 26 a few months ago and have been on the pill now since I was 15 (11 whole years)! In general my experience with the pill hasn't been too bad, I originally went on it because I suffered from bad acne as a teenager, it helped my acne and my period were a lot lighter once I started taking it. Over the years I have tried several different pills, some gave me headaches, some made me an emotional wreck and sometimes whenever I had health problems my GP suggested it could be my pill and changed it.

Now that I have been on the pill 11 years, I have read a lot about health risks of being on the pill for so long and it has me wondering whether I should stop taking the pill now and use different methods of contraception.

Part of me thinks it would be a good idea, I have read about people in my situation stopping the pill and feeling so much better from it, it could help my anxiety, it may stop my headaches and feeling bloated all the time and make me feel happier in general. But the thought of stop taking it terrifies me, it has been a safeguard for me for 11 years, I have practically never known any different and the thought of not knowing how my body might respond without it is pretty scary.

At the moment I am still deciding but if I make a decision I will keep you updated on my experience!

Has anyone else experienced going off the pill after a long time and how did you feel when you finally took the plunge?