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Friday, 17 March 2017

Feeling proud!

Today I thought I would write a post about feeling proud of yourself, even if the thing you have achieved seem like nothing to other people, but a big thing to yourself, you should take the time to praise yourself, pat yourself on the back and feel good about it.

For me this week, I did something a few years ago I would have found really hard/near impossible ... I stayed on my own for a whole week! Now I know some people reading this will think that it's no big deal, and that people live on their own all the time, but to me it is a massive step!

A big part of my anxiety means I hate, and I mean hate being alone, whenever J as been away for even a night in the past I have absolutely hated it, I have had panic attacks, been hysterical and just generally not felt well because of it. Why? I don't really know, part of me just feels completely anxious when I am alone, I think the worst things are going to happen, I feel scared, I feel alone and my own thoughts kind of consume me.

J started a new job this week which meant his first week he had to travel to Scotland for the week to do training. When he first told me this I felt sick, I started to panic and tried to think of arrangements for me to stay with someone. But then I calmed down and thought about how far I have come in the last few years, how much stronger I am now and I thought you know what? I can do this! And I did!! Today j is back and I have been by myself the whole week, and you know what? It's been absolutely fine! I mean there have been nights I have lay in bed upset cause I miss him and times when I felt a bit anxious because I thought I heard sounds at night but overall it's been fine and I feel so bloody proud of myself!

So today I am celebrating, I am praising myself and feeling good because I did it, and I am strong and can do anything if I put my mind to it!

Happy Friday!! :)

Monday, 6 February 2017

The pill and I

Contraception if often a subject most women wish to talk about but either don't feel comfortable talking about it or don't want to be judged. It's silly really because it is something so natural, most women are using contraception and its actually a good thing to be using it, so there is definitely nothing to be embarrassed about.

I turned 26 a few months ago and have been on the pill now since I was 15 (11 whole years)! In general my experience with the pill hasn't been too bad, I originally went on it because I suffered from bad acne as a teenager, it helped my acne and my period were a lot lighter once I started taking it. Over the years I have tried several different pills, some gave me headaches, some made me an emotional wreck and sometimes whenever I had health problems my GP suggested it could be my pill and changed it.

Now that I have been on the pill 11 years, I have read a lot about health risks of being on the pill for so long and it has me wondering whether I should stop taking the pill now and use different methods of contraception.

Part of me thinks it would be a good idea, I have read about people in my situation stopping the pill and feeling so much better from it, it could help my anxiety, it may stop my headaches and feeling bloated all the time and make me feel happier in general. But the thought of stop taking it terrifies me, it has been a safeguard for me for 11 years, I have practically never known any different and the thought of not knowing how my body might respond without it is pretty scary.

At the moment I am still deciding but if I make a decision I will keep you updated on my experience!

Has anyone else experienced going off the pill after a long time and how did you feel when you finally took the plunge?

Friday, 23 September 2016

Luna Cinema - Warwick Castle

On Thursday night, 4 of us drove over to Warwick Castle to Watch Star Wars - The Force Awakens outside on a big screen with The Luna Cinema. The grounds to Warwick Castle are absolutely stunning and just being there, on a summer night with all the lights on was pretty amazing.

The event was sponsored by Doubletree by Hilton and on arrival we were given a free cookie and bottle of Lucozade, everyone loves free stuff! We took our own chairs and managed to get a decent spot close enough to the screen and enough space for the four of us. There was a burger van, pizza and ice cream van to go and buy food from. We all had a burger meal, which was delicious and settled down to watch the film. Before it started there was several games/competitions, one of them being the chance to watch the film from a double bed complete with a stacked mini bar!

The film was really good, we could all see and hear it perfectly and it was such a unique experience being outside watching a film. We took our own snacks and drinks but there was a bar open throughout the movie if you wished to purchase anything. I would definitely recommend this experience to anyone, its different, unique and we all had a great night.

Star Wars was our choice but there is lots of different films and venues available so check it out: